Muchas Gracias 2013

Thankful...
Yeah I'm thankful.

Everyday I breathe in air that while it's not completely pure could be much, much worse.
Everyday I can call either of my two parents and say "I love you and Thanks" (probably should do that more).
Everyday I'm free to make and learn music that kicks ass with other kick ass musicians.

Everyday I can work towards making new creepy music videos for y'all to smile at :)
Everyday I can learn a new something about something that I knew Nothing about previously.
Everyday my eyes open a little more towards a light that is my ultimate goal and purpose.

Everyday I have the ability to eat food that a century ago would have only been "fit" for the upper class.
Everyday I'm swallowed with emotions, good and bad, for the purpose of the human experience.
Everyday a team of awesome people is fighting for the basic human rights that we all want and need that are held captive by the venomous grip of a small portion of mongrels.

Everyday the science of things in my head is wiped clean to not be stagnant on the Laws I've built in my head as Truth to make way for the Theories of Maybe that exist in the present.
Everyday I can make one person smile just by smiling at them, imagine that.
Everyday I have at least one person listen to the stuff that's tumbling outta my head via my mouth for some odd reason.

Everyday I have the option to connect with elder generations in order to relish and understand Their past, share Our present, and discuss My future.
Everyday I have to option to openly date and potentially fall in love with Anyone who is mutually interested in me (that hasn't been a reality for pretty much any of the ethnic groups I'm composed of for a full 100 years in this country <----that's a big deal. Fairy Tales and Shit!)
Everyday I live on this soft pillow of a westernized society after many, many people have fought hard, compromised, worked long hours, swindled, lie, cheated and died all so I could sit in my swanky apartment in my pajamas past noon and write these lines you're reading.

Everyday part of me continues the bloodline of the people first native to these lands of the New World and am thankful that I get to see it through one day at a time in their honor.
Everyday I have the ability expose my voice to billions of people via the technology that humans have built.
Everyday I walk on two moderately healthy feet and use ten moderately healthy fingers to touch and manipulate the world around me that I see with two working eyes, smell with two working nostrils, hear with two arguably working ears, and taste with one very troublesome tongue.

There's so much to be thankful for the list goes on...

Saturday 7:15pm, I'm safe and useless

Just watched a video of the Syrian victims of chemical weapons.  People strewn on the floors of medical centers like worms on the concrete after a strong rain.

vomiting, violent coughing that may lead to vomiting, despondence, convulsions; pain for the old, young, man, woman, indifferent.

Things I haven't experienced communally.

I started crying halfway through the video.

My stomach turned further at the thought of my own tears and what little they did (ok, let's be real they did Nothing) to help the 5 year old child, with his involuntary jerks of his left hand, who may not get to say "I love you" to his parents tomorrow morning (supposing of course that they're still alive). A PRIVILEGE that most of us take for granted, myself included. 

My own day to day, month to month, year to year complaints are childish and pathetic.

My conquests for money and love and sex and social acceptance and control and success and social isolation are the sloth that allow this level of pathology to occur.  

I'm not a bleeding heart hippie, I just don't want children to have to know this pain. I'm not getting on a political soapbox either.  These horrific plans that politicians put into action are older than the figureheads that we sit up like children to root for or boo and hiss at.  Obama this and Bush that.  Like those cunts have any real say.  They just deliver the crap news and admit to things that they didn't personally do. When the dude in the shadows can "push the button" on your whole family with a wave of his scaly, withering hand, you'd take the fall for anything.

I watch gruesome horror and gore movies alllllll the time with no problem and I've for a while diagnosed that it was to tune out the atrocities that man suffers unto his own brothers for pennies on the dime.

Popol Vuh Chapter 6: Ascension

Popol Vuh Chapter 6:  Ascension

Okay show’s over, No more blood was spilled 
The twins raised their hands the sky

They cried their names, and those of their fathers 
And Huracan was more than thrilled 

So long you been away, 
On Earth we thought you’d stay 
Welcome back we’ve missed you so

Pixie mist swirled all around them 
Then lifted them to the sky 
On a cloud of light 

Hunahpu the moon, Xbalanque the sun 
Always keep those heads raised high

Never alone, four hundred youths 
Help you constellate the sky

Xibalba fools gone away 
Heaven’s love is here to stay 
In your hearts we find home 

Arch of heaven & Face of Earth 
Are connected through the light 
Behold the hero twins ascend. 

Popol Vuh Chapter 5: R&R (Resurrection & Redemption)

Popol Vuh Chapter 5: R&R (Resurrection & Redemption)

Two old fools appeared at Hell’s doors 
With fire magik not seen before 
They cut and burned themselves to bits 
Then they reformed. 

“Bring these minstrels here!” said One and Seven-Death 
“Must see this magik before there’s nothing left” 
The old fools declined, humbled and ashamed. 
Beaten to obey, all part of the game 

“Where do you come from?” the Lords asked 
“We know not of our strange blood’s past” 
“Now kill our dog then best bring him back.” 
“That was good but…” 

“Can you kill man ‘til he’s at his last breath?” 
“Return his life once his heart’s out his chest?” 
“With ease” the masked twins replied. 
With a hand wave the Lazarus man opened his eyes 

“Now kill yourselves, our magik trick staff” 
They did and came back having a good laugh 
“Please do us next, we want the big fun!!!” 
They cut them up...

...And never ever put the Lords back together 
The twins removed the skin and clothes of leather 
“It’s now you fools who shit you pants!!!” 
Their uncles friends were then tormented with ants!

Popol Vuh Chapter 4: Martires

Popol Vuh Chapter 4:  Martires

The Devils, mad as hell, just wanted the twins dead 
So the bat lord Kama-Zotz sliced off Hun’s head 
Xbalanque screamed a mountain through their revelry 
He promised them a quick death soon to be. 
The buzzard Vuch wings blanketed the sun 
And Huracan smiled as the next chapter was spun (now I tell ya)

“Hun’s head shell is now complete 
Just play along and we’ll seal their defeat, 
Rabbit friend steal the ball that they will track 
By the fucking stars we’ll get my brother’s head back!!!” 

Devils hurled ball at Hun’s head for decimation 
Xbal stopped the ball with magik deflection 
The rubber ball rolled deep into the woods 
Seven monsters followed it as best they could 
The rabbit hid ball and the Lords were deceived 
It was then that Hunahpu’s head was retrieved 
The brogue worked time to finish off the liars 
To beat the devil you must first survive his pyre. 

“We’ll jump in willingly you know we ain’t scared!!!” 
They did then a powder of their bones was prepared 
The devils cast their problem ashes to the stream 
Then talks of mermen filled their ears and their dreams

Popol Vuh Chapter 3: Incarnation

Popol Vuh Chapter 3:  Incarnation

Magic twins of Blood with different names 
Played ball, miffed the gods as their fathers did the same 
The lords sent a challenge in a jungle roll 
A bug in a frog in a snake in a Russian hawk doll 
Armed with blowguns and Xan the Mosquo spy 
They crossed the river and called the Lords to their eyes 
They never smoked cigars or felt the hot seat 
So clever they were leading to the Devils’ defeat 

We are your incarnation 
The worst kind of distant relation 

“Who or what are you???!!! Where do you come from???!!!” 

“We do not know.  But your blood will flow!!!” 

Magic ants snuck dew pedals past the owl fools 
Lords slashed their mouths so future owls open wide to “who” 
In the Pantera House the twins threw bones 
The big bunch of hungry pussies then left them alone 
Getting closer to crush Xibalba’s empire 
Bricks of coal and wood pacified the house of fire 
Lords of Hell forget the future’s sewn from the past 
And how your nasty actions gives karma the last laugh. 

We are your incarnation 
The worst kind of distant relation 
“Who or what are you???!!! Where do you come from???!!!” 


“We do not know.  But your blood will flow!!!” 

Popol Vuh Chapter 2: Pair a Dice Lost

Popol Vuh Chapter 2: Pair a Dice Lost

WHAT IS THAT NOISE??!! 

Screamed seven devil Lords of Xibalba 
Have you no respect for the dead? 
four owls sent to present a duel to the fools 
A game in Hell is called, wear your best threads 
Walk down endless stairwells past a blood filled lake 
A four colored crossroads awaits your mistake 
evil jokesters made decoys for a laugh 
and the stone bench burns the skin right off your ass! 

We are the Lords of lands of deceit 
you offer your souls at the base of our feet 
Be sent to a house where the freezing wind howls 
or one where Pumas stalk you with snarls and growls! 
A house where knives screech ‘til you’re crazy with in 
A house of bats that bite and shroud your skin 
The twins shat their pants awaiting their doom 
Banished to darkness in the House of Endless Gloom 

Devil Lords gave them candles and cigars 
Un Trojan Regalo shines in black morning dew 
“Strip and paint them for death on the altars!” 
Then a Seven Club pulled out the Hearts of Two 
Buried at Puzbal-Char, Hun’s head fruited a tree 
Lord Blood’s lil’ girl swallowed its Seed of Progeny 
Four Owls sent to present the new mother with death 
But they saved her and only a phony heart was left 

We are the Lords of lands of deceit 
you offer your souls at the base of our feet 
Be sent to a house where the freezing wind howls 
or one where Pumas stalk you with snarls and growls! 
A house where knives screech ‘til you’re crazy with in 
A house of bats that bite and shroud your skin 
The twins shat their pants awaiting their doom 
Banished to darkness in the House of Endless Gloom

Popol Vuh Chapter 1: In the Beginning

Popol Vuh Chapter 1:  In the Beginning

Brothers Calm and Silence broke their vows of self 
to scream to life one existence 


For him, her, this, that, and all that’s in between 
Their tongues filled a universally shared dream 

The cries of dumb beasts seemed to displease 
and the mouths of the mud men were also ceased 


Gods can move in mysterious ways 
Strange how omniscience still craves our praise 

Sad fates for the forgotten men of wood 
an endangered few survived being cat food 


By monkeying round in the trees 
you can still hear there howls in the misty silk breeze...

Ack-Ack Oo-OOOOOooooo
Ack-Ack Oo-OOOOOooooo

Then came their son of their overwhelming pride 
Vucub-Caquix had diamond eyes and gold bones inside 
“I am the Sun, the Light, the Moon” 
Calm and Silence shook their heads at the baffoon 

Foolish Vucub claimed light as his glory 
The Hero Twins own that right, this is their story....

Blue Moon Shoveler

And the construction worked stopped between shovelfuls of concrete and debris to wipe the dust off of his brow as the night pressed on like a westbound train to a far away coast. The confetti of glass, rock, and metal on his shoulders and forearms shone in the moonlit glow like blue-collar rhinestones. 
This kind of urban dry rub is actually tiny cuts that won't be felt until a wash cloth rubs the particles away with bits of skin still attached.
Taking a moment to breathe he lit up a cigarette. He looked up to the sky as if to see a mystic answer etched in stars that would never come. It was then that he saw the blue moon rising.

"Haven't seen a moon like that in some time"
He snorted out a black glob of sooty snot, shrugged, and continued to shovel some more.
A few shovel loads in he thought to himself,
"Someday, I won't have to shovel past midnight.
Someday, but I guess not today"